Friday, May 10, 2013
The Great Gatsby opens today! I love Baz Luhrmann and his creativity and how vivid his films are. They are visually stunning.
Plus, I've been streaming the Gatsby CD for weeks and it is so damn good. Jay-Z, Emeli Sandé, Lana del Rey (a personal fave), Sia, Andre 3000...the list goes on. If you are not listening to this, or haven't heard it yet, you must!
I liked it so much I purchased it and it's on repeat in my office on the daily.
I mean, get it already!
I probably won't be able to see this until next week, but oh man, it will be worth it.
Leonardo DiCaprio?? I mean...it's Leo. He's so talented and gorgeous and great.
So basically, I cannot wait for F. Scott Fitzgerald's book to come to life with a Luhrmann spin. It'll be great.
Love & Leonardo DiCaprio,
Saturday, May 4, 2013
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
I went to get my Brian MRI with contrast yesterday. I was also amazed that they had any appointments, but they did and that was relieving.
I got there early to complete a bunch of paperwork. It was very matter of fact and to the point. No warm and fuzzies, but I mean, that's not their job.
I laid down on the bed, they put a nice warm blanket on me, told me about the procedure and they'd be telling me about how long each "session" would be, like 1 minute, 1 1/2 minutes, etc. They also gave me earplugs and asked what radio station I wanted to listen to. I figure, "Hmmm, a loud nap."
I shut my eyes and tried to go to my happy place. They periodically checked in on me and I was fine. My eyes were shut (mainly because hello, MRI's are basically like mechanical versions of caskets). I was thinking of the funny things that Wyatt says and I was giggling to myself and jamming out to Macklemore.
I was then taken out for the contrast part of the MRI and put back in.
As told by WebMD: The MRI can show tissue damage or disease, such as infection, inflammation, or a tumor. Information from an MRI can be saved and stored on a computer for more study. Photographs or films of certain views can also be made. In some cases, a dye (contrast material) may be used during the MRI to show pictures of structures more clearly. The dye may help show blood flow, look for some types of tumors, and show areas of inflammation.
And now, my favorite part of the game...WAITING.
Oh, I'm just a peach at this. I have the patience of a toddler in a tantrum.
And I also tend to babble because I'm so dang nervous. While I'm hoping it's something so simple and easily remedied, I just want to know.
Plus, waiting for your phone to ring sends me back to the days of dating when you soooooo want the cute boy you like to call you and you just stare at your phone like by osmosis it'll actually ring and actually be him.
I'm now doing that with my iPhone. Any distractions are welcome!
Thanks for listening. You're the best.
Love & Lattes,
Monday, April 29, 2013
I have been in physical pain for over 8 months. The pain is in my head. I wake up EVERY SINGLE MORNING with the absolute worst headache I have ever experienced. It is like my head is in a vice and been pushed in.
In the beginning, I told myself it was stress. I was unhappy at work, it was super stressful, I was going on interviews and planning a huge event. I just chalked it up to that. Or that I didn’t get enough sleep. I then would sleep longer and I was still in excruciating pain.
I would go through the day and while headache medicine would dull the ache, the pain never really goes away.
I then thought after my work event, I would magically be pain free.
Very wrong. The pain kicks me in the temples every single morning and it makes waking up my least favorite thing. And another strange thing is that right before bed, my head kicks into pain mode again.
I am not a fan of constantly taking medicine and my whole theory of it disappearing after event was bogus. Thus, I went to my doctor on Friday.
Of course I drove myself a bit crazy and googled my symptoms. Dumb. Scary. Dumb thing to do.
I thought maybe it was a food allergy or caused by something random. I didn’t want to say,” Oh maybe I have something going on in my brain.”. I didn’t have to say that though because, well, my doctor did. He said,” I find it troublesome that your headaches are worse in the morning and that they are every single day. “. Cool.
He asked me a myriad of questions and I was brutally honest about everything. About how the pain sometimes is so awful my vision goes blurry. That I have cried the pain almost seems unbearable That a few times the pain was so bad in my head that it woke me from sleep. That I am nauseous several days a week and when my head hurts wicked bad, I don’t eat. How I avoided caffeine thinking it would help. How I drank caffeine thinking it would help. Same with wine.
Nothing. The pain is still so fucking real and present.
The doctor requested I get a brain MRI. I have to call tomorrow to see if I can go tomorrow afternoon. I just wanna know what the hell is going on.
Let’s be real…I am scared shitless. Should I jump to conclusions? Nope. Did my Googling scare the shit out of me? You bet.
But I need answers now. I have a sweet two year-old that looks up to me and wants me to be around so now I am going to stop at nothing to found out what is literally stabbing my temples every single day.
Here is hoping it is a bizarre allergy or something that simple.
And if you have a chance to perhaps just send a good thought or two my way, I would be so indebted and grateful.
I am scared. Yes. I said it. I don’t wanna go to the dark place of what my gut is saying it could be.
I will just have to wait. And hopefully the pain will soon be gone in some way or another.
Friday, April 19, 2013
Thursday, April 18, 2013
- This is the next 9 days of my life. All work and no play. So.much.to.do.
- The moment the event is over, I swear I will feel like a sea lion has been lifted off of me. I will do the happiest dance of my life. I am ready for it to be here, to go well and frankly, for it to be done.
- Easter was fun with Wy. My husband had to work, but Wy and I had a lovely time at church and with my family. Lunch was delicious and apple pie for everyone! Everything is better with pie. Wyatt also loved the easter egg hunt in our house and shaking each egg saying, "I think there's something in there." It was so cute.
- I had a scary event on Saturday night after dinner with Wy and my father. I was carrying Wy up our outside stairs and lost my footing. Luckily, I managed to get Wy safe and on his feet and fell HARD on my left knee. I knew the moment it hit, my jeggings were ripped open, my foot scraped the entire pavement and once I stood, I realized there was blood dripping down. Lots of blood. Oh fun. I was just so relieved that Wy was fine. My knee would be fine, just glad Wy was all good and well.
- My darling friend is coming to work today to help me out with my ad book because she's an English teacher and she's so witty and fun. It'll make the time fly by...with lots of laughs in between.
**AN OLD POST FROM APRIL 4**